June 28, 2009

Lost in a Sea of Spit-Up

I knew being a new parent would keep me pretty busy, but I had no idea what was in store for me. My days and nights are completely consumed by our 10 lb handsome boy, who is growing like a weed and (sometimes) screaming like a banshee. I'd like to say that I am soaking in every minute of his absolute perfection, but truthfully I haven't learned how to calm down enough to do that. I definitely am enjoying him, though - but it's often tempered by my own meltdowns and freak outs.

I have a very long blog entry in the works about my current emotional landscape. I've realized that being a new parent is a lot like being part of some strange alternate reality. I never know what the date is, and I definitely have my days and nights mixed up. I live in a fog of sleep deprivation and always seem to be up to my eyeballs in dirty laundry. It's a strange place to be, and not necessarily a bad one. It's just hard! I had no idea how hard any of this would be. I guess you just can't know until you're doing it.

Anyway, about that long blog entry - writing it is so tough. I've actually been working on it since we got home from the hospital but I have to take it in pieces because everything is still so raw. Hopefully I'll have that completed and posted soon. While I doubt anyone will be waiting on the edge of their seat for it, I want to get it out there for my own benefit and for others who might be going through the same thing.

I have been terrible at commenting on other people's blogs, but I am still reading! I often read blogs when I am pumping, and it's really hard to type out a comment one-handed. So know that I am thinking of you all and still keeping up with what's going on in your lives. I'm hoping that someday soon I'll figure out how to handle a baby while taking care of other important things.

Another thing I do while pumping is watch movies. I've seen some good ones lately:

Dan in Real Life - This one surprised me with how good it was.

11:14 - This one was a surprise, too. I had it out from Netflix since the beginning of May and just watched it last week. I really, really liked it, but then again, I'm a sucker for those types of movies that have a bunch of random story lines that eventually all merge.

The Reader - I had not heard of this one until one of Roy's friends let us borrow it. It's a really great (but sad) story. And it's totally gotten me hooked on Kate Winslet - I have two more of her movies coming to me next week.

Mulholland Drive - I've seen this movie multiple times, as I'm a huge David Lynch fan, but it had been several years since I had watched it. I still think it's a fantastic movie, one of Lynch's best.

Delicatessen - I'm in the process of rewatching this one. It's by the director of Amelie, which is my favorite movie ever. It's a very interesting, very funny French movie. I really like foreign films when I am in the mood for them.

Anyway, this is all I've got for now. Charlie is three weeks old tomorrow, and I hope to be back with an update on the cutest baby ever.


phairhead said...

I loved Dan in Real Life. I thought it was a very honest look at family dynamics.

Kate Winslet!!!! Eternal Sunshine : )

Erika said...

Kate Winslet!!! -REVOLUTIONARY ROAD......a little slow but a GREAT MOVIE!!!

A said...

I have loved Kate Winslet since Sense and Sensibility, one of my favorite movies (and books).

I have been catching up on my movie-watching too and wish we could share notes!

Angie Eats Peace said...

I really liked Dan in Real Life!

Brenda said...

Great movies. If you haven't seen Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind w/Kate Winslet & Jim Carrey you should, I freaking LOVE that movie :) I would like to request more pics of the cutest baby ever please!

Crazy Daisy said...

Take your time! I mean, I looking forward to your post, however it sounds like you have your hands full! Goodness. :-)

cowboyboot lady said...

Looking forward to your long post!!!

A really good Kate Winslet movie is Hideous Kinky! Her character travels through Morocco in the 60's with her two young daughters. Check it out!

alyssa said...

Can't wait for your long, detailed post! I love your updates about baby!