I knew being a new parent would keep me pretty busy, but I had no idea what was in store for me. My days and nights are completely consumed by our 10 lb handsome boy, who is growing like a weed and (sometimes) screaming like a banshee. I'd like to say that I am soaking in every minute of his absolute perfection, but truthfully I haven't learned how to calm down enough to do that. I definitely am enjoying him, though - but it's often tempered by my own meltdowns and freak outs.
I have a very long blog entry in the works about my current emotional landscape. I've realized that being a new parent is a lot like being part of some strange alternate reality. I never know what the date is, and I definitely have my days and nights mixed up. I live in a fog of sleep deprivation and always seem to be up to my eyeballs in dirty laundry. It's a strange place to be, and not necessarily a bad one. It's just hard! I had no idea how hard any of this would be. I guess you just can't know until you're doing it.
Anyway, about that long blog entry - writing it is so tough. I've actually been working on it since we got home from the hospital but I have to take it in pieces because everything is still so raw. Hopefully I'll have that completed and posted soon. While I doubt anyone will be waiting on the edge of their seat for it, I want to get it out there for my own benefit and for others who might be going through the same thing.
I have been terrible at commenting on other people's blogs, but I am still reading! I often read blogs when I am pumping, and it's really hard to type out a comment one-handed. So know that I am thinking of you all and still keeping up with what's going on in your lives. I'm hoping that someday soon I'll figure out how to handle a baby while taking care of other important things.
Another thing I do while pumping is watch movies. I've seen some good ones lately:
Dan in Real Life - This one surprised me with how good it was.
11:14 - This one was a surprise, too. I had it out from Netflix since the beginning of May and just watched it last week. I really, really liked it, but then again, I'm a sucker for those types of movies that have a bunch of random story lines that eventually all merge.
The Reader - I had not heard of this one until one of Roy's friends let us borrow it. It's a really great (but sad) story. And it's totally gotten me hooked on Kate Winslet - I have two more of her movies coming to me next week.
Mulholland Drive - I've seen this movie multiple times, as I'm a huge David Lynch fan, but it had been several years since I had watched it. I still think it's a fantastic movie, one of Lynch's best.
Delicatessen - I'm in the process of rewatching this one. It's by the director of Amelie, which is my favorite movie ever. It's a very interesting, very funny French movie. I really like foreign films when I am in the mood for them.
Anyway, this is all I've got for now. Charlie is three weeks old tomorrow, and I hope to be back with an update on the cutest baby ever.