I just might vomit.

I can't sleep. Here's why:

I am obsessive about saving emails. I have ten years of emails on my computer, some of which date back to my very first computer.

The most important ones are the personal emails that I've received and sent over the years. For some reason, anytime someone writes me something, I feel compelled to keep it. I think it's because I take the act of writing so seriously that I consider each email a gift or something. Also, a lot of my life has been recorded via email, and that's important to me as well.

Currently, Staples has my computer, and they are going to have to reinstall Windows to get rid of all the spyware. Before they do that, though, they will have to back up all my email. I wasn't able to do it here at home, and I keep having doubts that they'll be able to do it either.

Just when I thought I had this little fear under control, I woke up in the middle of the night sweating over this.

Life will go on if I lose my email - I know this. Besides, didn't I just write a post about letting go?